Seeing red

One small patch of red was the devastating start

I tried to stay strong but I knew in my heart

Then after the scan the red really did flow

But despite the agony, my body couldn’t let go

Three weeks of red and we were still holding on

Then I was put to sleep until you were gone

The red didn’t stop for another five weeks

Which led to despair as an infection inside peaks

Two weeks of medication and the red disappears

Followed by a week of nothing but a head full of fears

Am I still working? Is my body repaired?

Then red started again and I can only feel scared

What does this red even mean anymore?

I’m physically exhausted, there’s cramps and I’m sore

I emotionally can’t bare the sight of red again

It’s a reminder you’re gone and the cause of my pain

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