One small patch of red was the devastating start
I tried to stay strong but I knew in my heart
Then after the scan the red really did flow
But despite the agony, my body couldn’t let go
Three weeks of red and we were still holding on
Then I was put to sleep until you were gone
The red didn’t stop for another five weeks
Which led to despair as an infection inside peaks
Two weeks of medication and the red disappears
Followed by a week of nothing but a head full of fears
Am I still working? Is my body repaired?
Then red started again and I can only feel scared
What does this red even mean anymore?
I’m physically exhausted, there’s cramps and I’m sore
I emotionally can’t bare the sight of red again
It’s a reminder you’re gone and the cause of my pain